Archive for August, 2005

~*-=Perfect Day=-*~

Tuesday, August 30th, 2005

Heyz people… wassup.. omg the new friendster blog is so kewlz.. hehez.. i love green.. hehez.. oh well "Happy  Merdeka" everyone.. hhez.. in my whole life,i didnt knw merdeka was so fun.. hehez.. went out yest night.. went to gurney.. lepak there.. n drank..it was awesome.. hehez.. but everything is perfet now.. back to normal.. oh yea remind me.. i gotta study already.. examz coming soon..=) so no more goin out for the time being.. hhez.. oh well gotta go change.. brb…

~*-=My Update=-*~

Wednesday, August 24th, 2005

~*-=A Poem By Me=-*~
Here i am sitting in the corner of a broken wall,
u watched me here as i fall.
I used to stand so tall
but u left me here feeling so small.

My dayz with u were unbreakable,
Every moment we shared was unspeakable.
My love for u is undenieble.
The love we shared was unpredictable.

I thought to myself whether is it true that u love me,
Are we really meant to be.
but there is a part in my heart telling me that u were so blind to see.
And yet another telling me that you’re in love with me.

As the time goes by now,
Maybe love wasnt worth a bow.
to me ur my everything now.
But timez changing everything we had

My love for u is slowly dying
but now itz not worth crying
for me to see u with someone else hugging
to telll u the truth i’m slowly dying.

I’m just trying to hide my deepest feeling
as i’m slowly clinggin.
clinggin on to something
that i never once had.

What am i to do now?
should i be the one to leave u now?
i can tell u that i’m here for u,
i will alwayz support u through everythin.

Maybe i’m the one to blame,
but loving u is not a shame.
i’m not here for the fame,
but ur making me think that i’m the one to blame.

where were u when i was alright,
feeling u was just so right.
i think of ur tender touch every night,
in that lonely path u gave me light.

the stars up above was shinnin on you n me
giving me signalz that we were meant to be
how would i know wut i did?
to be treated just like this

Deep in my very lonely heart,
u still play an important part
i swear we will never part
if u just fill me in my lonely heart.

i’m still praying above the bright sky,
to just have u by my side.
even though ur with someone else,
how i hope u were just mine.

to show is wut i wanna do,
to give my touch whenever i feel.
this poem is made for u,
i hope u think of it as it is true.

the lst wordz i’m about to say,
is what i feel about u everyday.
i truely love u in ur fantastic wayz,
truely hope u will give me another way.

heyz.. well these few dayz have been goin on great.. i love it so much.. hehheez.. well i’m kinda sad cause i’l;l be leaving for camp for 5 dayz n will be back on sunday.. so i guess i’ll miss u guyz.. + will miss gurney too.. hehehez.. hehehz.. i’ll update ya’ll when i get back.. byez

~*-=Dunno wut to do=-*~

Sunday, August 14th, 2005

Well i’m really lost,confuse and so much more now.. maybe i should stop this cause i knw people r getting sick to hear this from me everytime… but i just gotta take time off for myself.. i dont knw really.. sometimes i think life’s unfair… i really dunno y.. maybe itz not meant to be.. that is love i’m talking about.. how can it be when the person u love so much is so blind to see… ok tell me.. if a person likez u,u would knw it right..? by the way that person treatz u.. am i right..? well i dont knw.. i just gotta let it go n be happy for them.. but the other side of my heart is telling me not too.. i cant resist.. wut should i do..? right now i’m seeking for help… but i knw there is 2 solutionz either i forget about it n carry on { which is not gonna happen easily } or i should find another one.. but the thing is who wantz me..? who..? maybe i’m not ready for a real relationship.. right now i regretted breaking up with my ex… i feel like a dickhead.. but i still really dunno wut should i do either.. some1 plz tell me… i’m getting sick of this too.. itz bringin my wholeself down.. so down that wouldnt wanna knw..

~*-=+-’Mr.I Dont Know~!!!!!!!!!!!’-+=-*~

~*-=FINALLLY=-*~

Saturday, August 13th, 2005

STUPID F**k… now only i can get to update my blog… itz been ages man.. AGES i tell u… well newayz these few dayz was reallly really hard for me.. i dont knw wut i’m thinking about also.. i’m loosing my mind already i guess… still got no solution to help me.. trying to recover but i still cant.. cant be like this
the whole year.. well i’m still finding a solution.. went to watch Herbie today.. it was really good.. then after Herbie went to watch Bewitched.. it was funny.. well now i’m still having a “not so good” day.. dunno wut to do… newayz will end this up with a lyric+song i love so much now… the lyric is meaningful n wut i feel inside too… take a look..

~*-=Mariah Carey’zZz We Belong Together=-*~
I didn’t mean it
When I said I didn’t love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should’ve let you go
I didn’t know nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I couldn’t have fathomed that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I’d be
Sitting here beside myself

‘Cause I didn’t know you
‘Cause I didn’t know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I’m feeling
Now that I don’t
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don’t have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn’t give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, ’cause baby

[Chorus:]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please, ’cause
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

I can’t sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack’s on the radio
Singing to me
‘If you think you’re lonely now’
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it’s breaking my heart
I’m trying to keep it together
But I’m falling apart
I’m feeling all out of my element
I’m throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain’t even half of what
I’m feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

[Chorus]

[Repeat chorus]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It’s still so hard to believe
Come back baby please, ’cause
We belong together
Who am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who’s gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who’s gonna take your place
There ain’t nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

~*-=The New Me=-*~

Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005

Well hey.. this is the new me.. i just realize that i just wasted 2 years of achievement.. i’m gonna make it right again.. i’ve wasted because the person that i love is really giving me a big headache.. n i admit that these dayz i’m not really “back to earth” as i’m so stress about it.. so thatz y these few dayz i’m not acting myself.. wasting my time is wut i do these few dayz… but hey what r u loookin for everday..? for the person who u love to talk to u right..? Listen.. thingz aint that easy nowadayz.. that person wont instanly fall for u.. oh well just let god do wut he can do while we do better in other thingz.. put love aside n concentrate on ur studies.. i think that is the new me now…. cant afford waiting my time.. so to the person i love { u knw who u are }.. this is for u.. i’ve waited so long already.. wasted all of my time.. gave up everythin for u.. but u cant even care,love me as much as i do for u.. but itz okayz.. i think i’m okayz with it d.. so itz now up to u.. itz up to u…

~*-=Mr.JoNaTHaN Aka The New Me=-*~

~*-=Wish i could turn back time=-*~

Monday, August 1st, 2005

do u wish u could ever turn back time..? to that very moment that u ever dreamed off..? to that very moment u every wish it will stay like this..? well i have.. but i cant turn back time.. to wut i wish for.. If wishes really come true.. people in this whole wide world will be happy forever.. but i didnt say wishes dont come true.. sometimes it does.. Mistakez that i did last time.. wish i could correct it. but i cant turn back time.. all i can do is take that as a lesson.. come on..? how many people here have done a lot of mistakez that shouldnt be done..? well all of us do make stu[P]id mistakez.. sometimes u even wish that u didnt do that.. but all of these mistakez can help us correct ourself.. so correct urself.. n i gotta to correct ME too.. i feel that i have made a lot of Stu[P]id mistakez.. sometimes i wish i can turn back the handz of time.. but i knw i cant.. so pray.. pray to god.. he can help.. he help me in a lot of difficultes now.. n i’m very thankful.. but there is somethingz he wantz u to realise n do it on ur own.. so get all of ur self straight n start goin.. everyday is a new beginning.. people r waiting to see ur Smile.. cause ur smile can help the people in need.. so Smile even though u had a bad day.. Smile to help otherz.. veryday startz off with a Smile.. Make a effort to Smile n not alwayz saying that u dont have the mood.. YES u do have the mood.. n itz uip to u to control ur mood.. so Control it..

ReMeMBer: A Smile Can Help Otherz in need..

~*-=Mr.JoNaTHaN=-*~