Jon Michael’s Every Move,Every Step

Why izzit alwayz i have to be the one person who gives everythin n getz nothing in return.? y izzit like this? i’m seriously sick of being people’z doorman Especially for the one i love.. seriously i’ve done everythin i could to get that person.. but did it work? NO! itz like some fucking junk to that person.. sometimez no matter how hard i explain,it just doesnt make sense to that person.. hello r u blind..? i like u.. i love u.. god ur so stupid.. why cant somebody just shoot me plz.. i’m sick n tired of being in this world that i once thought it was filled with lotsa stuff n new thingz to come.. i’m sick of living here.. 365 dayz of my life totally gone.. or shall we say 365 x 2.. thatz how long my dayz were wasted.. time passes so fast.. i keep hanging in the same direction.. how do i change my direction to make me happy again..? How How How? sometimez i wish i never met certain people.. For example.. i wish i never met A who has cause a lot of damage n i’m slowly losing people.. i wish i never met B 2,who i care about so much but i get nothing,i mean nothing good in return.. y cant the person treat me like how i treat them.? y? maybe i’m not good enough.. all my life i was a happy go lucky guy.. i alwayz put a smile where ever i go.. i miss those timez when i had nothing else to think but about my studies.. sometimes i wish that i didnt have feelingz at all.. cause it hurtz now.. it hurtz real bad.. listening to sad songz and hurtful songz can draw me closer to death.. seriously somebody should have some solution to vanish people’s feelingz n hurtfullness.. itz like whatever u do,nobody realises n carez.. y? y? y?.. thatz my Question.. oh yea n Y izzit that the person that u love a lot,only loves u a bit… but the person u dont really love,loves u a lot.? y izzit like this..? izit some kind of game that people r playing..? y cant the person u love so much give u a chance to prove everything..? y? y? y? somebody just tell me somethin for now i knw that i dont knw anythin at all.. i’m lost man..